Why R U? Because of Love? Special Chapter by Saifah: Project vs Wantonly Boyfriend
“I know Phii Fight, but … Okay. Wait. Can you tell me again? Phii … I understand.”
“Oh, Hwa … the project must be sent in a hurry … Hey, don’t take it like that, Hwa … Hwa! Sigh, just hang up,” Day complained, shaking his head in a frenzy. While Tutor is no different. Even though he just sighed, I knew that Phii Fight had no control over it. Maybe because the three of us have been obsessed with projects that I barely have time for other things therefore making the person who sleeps next to me somewhat upset.
But what should I do? Well, when this project was important because twenty raw points right here, the grade of this subject could be a gamechanger in the GPA score.
So after school, Tor and I had to stop by and sleep at Day’s house to finish my project. There are not a lot of things left now, but in the current situation, it may be necessary to pause the project for a few days.
“I say that Sunday, should we take a break from the project beforehand? We’ll go back and finish it next week,” Tor said about the project break. Where has he ever agreed to suspend working on the project… he is normally never was like this.
“That’s good. I just want to rest this weekend first, it’s still good. During this time, Hwahwa is staying with me. Just a moment ago, she said she was waiting in the central cafeteria. If I didn’t go to the movies today with her, she would definitely break up with me.”
“Then lets just take a break. We need to send the work to the teacher by next Friday. We can still beat the timeline.” I answered two of my friends like that because really. And the work is almost a hundred percent finished. Zen already There is a little left to keep.
“So lets just do this. We don’t have to do any projects at my house today. Let’s go back together, right? Tor would hurry to go after Phii Fight. I’ll hurry to find Hwa and you … Zon didn’t call you or anything?”
“No, he said he understood.”
“Well, what is easy now that he had a boyfriend?” Day murmured, mumbling.
“…” I was silent, saying nothing. I don’t know how to be really happy. Or does Zon understand me like this?
“So let’s go back. Phii Fight is waiting.”
“Well, lets go back.”
I finished nodding to my two friends and walked back to my room without any real haste. There may be some frustration at every Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Zon is going to sleep at home to see the sugar bum. The first stubborn dog, every time I go near him he get angry.
But anyway, at least since Zon moved to my room. We have more time together. Plus he came to sleep over in my room a lot but during this time I am working on a project that I always came back late when Zon was asleep and Zon had morning lessons so he didn’t even give me a morning kiss before leaving.
After he comes to sleep in my room he is so super considerate and not want to bother much. So I hasten to finish the project quickly. So I can have time with him as before.
I really want to hug him.
Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
The sound of a phone ringing came when I got back to the room.
“Did you arrive home?”
[Um]
“What are you doing?” I asked, dropping into bed. Eyes crying, falling asleep feeling tired.
[Playing with Ai’Sugar]
“Sugar again. I’m bored of it.”
[Isn’t it just a dog? Saifah]
“Annoying dog.”
[That’s why he hates you]
“…”
[…]
“Zon.”
[Mmh…]
“During the past, we haven’t been able to talk to or hang around together, right?”
[I can’t help it. Well, you have a project that needs to be finished.]
“You … understand me really well.”
[Why do you make that sighing sound?]
“No, just think why you understand so well.”
[…]
“You understand so much that sometimes I secretly feel … Feel hurt as well.”
[What did you say, Saifah]
“No, I think I’ll take a shower and sleep. I’m tired.”
[Didn’t you go to do a project today?]
“Yes, Tor and Day were complained to by Phii Fight and Hwa about them not having time for their lovers. So this Saturday we decide to pause on the project first.”
[Is that so?] Zon’s voice became softer that I could barely hear. [Brother Zon, mom called you to come down to eat]
[I know, wait a minute]
[Hurry up, brother Zon, your father has returned.]
[Well, I’ll follow along]
“You go eat, Zon. Let’s talk later.” I spoke to end the phone call because I heard the sound of younger Zol interrupted us.
[Okay, then I’ll go eat]
“Well, eat your food well.”
[It’s delicious anyway]
“I … miss you, Zon.”
[…]
[Me too …]
[Phii Zon!]
[Oh, I know. I’m coming. She’s really nosy]
“Haha, you are a person like this. Here you go. Good night.”
[You too]
Zon hung up for a while. I can only faintly smile at the nostalgia that beats in my heart right now.
I miss Zon… Even though I didn’t think so until it was overflowing desperation of wanting to spend time with, I missed Zon.
I miss everything that is him. I miss touching him I miss the faint moan that emanates from those little lips. But anyway, at least my situation is not as bad as Tor when Phii Fight was in his internship. Because if it were like that, I would have died first.
“Sigh.” I sighed softly before walking into the bath and go back to sleep without going out for dinner, maybe because I don’t sleep much lately this time, when I was sleeping, I fell asleep so hard that I could barely hear anything. But something made me wake up in the middle of the night is more because of the smell of alcohol from someone lying next to me.
The little person who I missed so much was holding me tightly. The smell of alcohol was all over the place like a small person.
“Zon.”
“Ugh!.”
“When did you get here?” I asked, reaching for the headboard light to turn on what I see right now is a can of beer that I secretly stocked in the room.
I rubbed my head with full force, then turned to look at the drunk mumbling in the throat.
“Drunk.”
“No, a little bit. I’m not drunk at all.”
I shook my head at the person who said I was not drunk with affection before moving up to sit well. At first, I was planning to get up and collect the beer cans littering the room, but someone moved up to stop me with two hands around my waist.
“What?”
“…” He didn’t answer why he hugged my waist. But what Zon did was put his head on my shoulder instead.
“9:00 p.m.” and suddenly he spoke the time without anything reference.
“Huh?”
“Didn’t you ask when I came?”
“Oh.”
“I’ve been here since 9 p.m. I arrived and saw you asleep in bed. When I wake you up, you won’t wake and I just saw the beer in the cupboard …”
“You’ve cleaned them all, right?”
“Yeah, I even drank those in the fridge. It’s all empty now.”
“And you still have the shame to smile for cleaning out my stash.” I shook my head at the person who was still giggling. “I think I am very stubborn to drink this much.”
Can’t help but complain to Zon. I don’t know what he was thinking about to drink all the beer in the cupboard.
“…”
“Anyway, I won’t answer.” I raised my hand and rubbed the head of the good guy who was still on my shoulder again. But Zon still didn’t answer, he just got up and sat on my lap, “What are you doing?”
“Want.”
“What do you want?” I asked the person who was putting both legs into my waist. The forehead moved and tucked onto the shoulder like a little cat that was petting its owner.
“I want you.”
“Why?”
“I miss you.”
“Huh.”
“I tell you that I miss you. When talking on the phone when it’s evening, did you say you missed me?”
“Well, yes.”
Back then I didn’t say back because Zol interrupted it first. Thinking about it, I felt strange. Not telling me about you back, “Zon said in a slurred tone. Before looking up at me with an affectionate expression
Do you believe that his posture now is so cute. Seeing this posture I want so make love to him so bad.
“Do you want to eat something?” I changed the story. Maybe because I’m afraid of my own horniness… the other man in the situation is heavily drunk.
“Want.”
“What do you want?”
“Want! Eat! You!” He finished. Zon immediately bit into my shoulder, although not with all his strength, I could feel the tooth mark on my shoulder.
“That hurts.”
“Does it hurt? Zon will blow in it,” Zon says, pulling my collar down from my shoulder before blowing softly. He pressed the kiss down softly. The feeling of being horny and missing him right now was so strong that I was tense all over. No, I didn’t want to do anything because Zon was drunk. I wanted to do it when we were both sober together.
“Saifah …”.
Zon called my name, and jokingly moved his lips into my ear.
“You are drunk, right?” I asked again.
“Not much.”
“If not, will you dare to say this?”
“I am brave,” said Zon, looking up at me. He grabbed my face with both hands before pushing his face cloaser to his. “Well, I really want to eat you.”
“What is this?”
“Want to kiss too, can we kiss? Saifah.”
“…”
“…”
“You want to kiss me?.” I raised my eyebrows, challenging the little person. He smiled and pressed a kiss to my mouth once. But fuck, because he was so drunk, from which it should have been soft, it turned out that he slammed into my mouth instead
“That …hurts.”
“You still have the nerve to say that it hurts while the person who should complain is me? You bumping like this.”
“I am sorry.”
“It’s fine. Look at my mouth. It’s twinging.” I supported Zon’s face to see the mouth he had hit before. It is also good that there are no scars.
“Okay,” I think it is with a finger flickering on Zon’s forehead with a bit of disgust. “So what do you want to eat? I will order delivery.”
“Are you hungry?”
“Not much but it is better to order something to eat because since I haven’t eaten anything yet.”
“Eat me instead?”
“Zon?”
“You really don’t want to eat me,” said Zon and then he put his face into the nook of my neck again. The smell of alcohol got stuck in my nose until I shook my head at the little guy with a laugh.
“In conclusion, what do you want to eat?”
“Eat me or nothing.”
“What’s with you, Zon?” I put down the phone that I was about to order food and reached out and pushed Zon’s head resting on his shoulder so I could have a good look at him.
“What is it?”
“Nothing,” Zon puffed up the air in his cheek and turned away. So I could only push the cheeks of my short man back till we meet each other’s eyes.
“Hey, is there anything you want to tell me about?”
“I hear you say that you are hurt.”
“Huh.”
“When talking on the phone in the evening You say you were hurt, right? You were hurt that I am so understanding in that you have fewof any time to spend with me while you are making a project.” I nodded to Zon as the answer. “But how do you know?”
“…”
“I didn’t understand as you said it then. Maybe I wanted to not add to your worries. I want to cry out why do you think I do not care, but I do care so much, but the project is important right now and sometimes I have to sleep at home. I don’t want to understand why at all, but I …”
“…”
“I don’t want to worry you. I don’t want to be a burden I want to become an adult so the only way I can shoulder responsibility is by pretending to be strong and saying that I understand you everything even though I don’t understand anything at all. I never even thought of wanting to understand but Saifah, I’m scared…”
“…”
“I’m afraid that if I ask you too much … You will be tired of me first.”
“It’s funny, Zon, who’s going to get tired of you? I never get bored of you, you know.”
“Who knows what will happen in the future?”
“My future, I must know.”
“…”
“But where did you get this kind of mindset? Why do you think I will be tired of you?”
“…” Zon didn’t answer anymore. He turned away from me and pretended to move off my lap as well. But it was me who reached out to hug his waist first.
“Girlfriend asked, did you hear it?”
“hear.”
“Heard and answer as well where did you get this idea? Why do you think that if the voice is annoyed, it will make another person bored.
“Zol.”
“What.”
“Damn it, Zol said this to me….”
“Said what?”
“Said with my personality, whoever is going to be with me will leave me because I am spoiled. …Not mature…. Hard to understand… Acting like a problematic lover… If I am still acting like this in the future, you may end wanting to be with me.”
“When you were talking to Zol this way you two were fighting, isn’t it?” I don’t have to be clairvoyant, I know that if Zol spoke like this, then it was definitely a fight. And should also be a serious argument to make Zol said this.
“Well, yes … a few arguments, but it spreads over selfishness and not being mature. How do you know? But what Zol said really made me think.”
“You are short and I’m cool with that, why are you still stupid?” I said, pushing Zon’s head in disgust once. “I will never get tired of you, Zon. I love you because you are you… If you’re going to hurt me somehow, I’ll be fine, even if you don’t have a reason or don’t understand me everything, I’m fine with that. Because I know what kind of person you are. I love you and that is that. I love that sometimes you are annoyed. I love that sometimes you are an adult and love that sometimes you act as a kid.”
“…”
“I assume that if you were always acting as an adult. There is a reason for every stroke of life. I wouldn’t fall in love with you.”
“You speaking to make me feel better right?”
“Why should I speak this way?”
“Really,” The drunken man said in a pleading tone again. I nodded again to let Zon know that what I really love is him. It doesn’t have to be anyone or what kind of effort it takes to make me love. Just being himself the way it is is enough. “So good.”
Zon murmured, then whispered, hugged me tightly. I could only gently pat Zon’s head. As if telling it to understand
“Then why are you and Zol fighting with each other until you have such a big argument?”
“Well, I took her food,” Zon said in a soft voice. More like murmuring in the throat than speaking to me
“What’s that, you were stealing her food?”
“Yes! I took her share. Mom bought a large food box of Japanese food for her. As a reward that she helped mother with her work. But I couldn’t get my stomach filled so I ate all of the stuff out.
“But you did not help your mother with her work.”
“Well, yes.”
“And you still go and grab your sister’s food again.”
“Ugh.” Zon nodded, admitting wrong.
“It is understanding that she will be angry that much.”
“Do you take sides with Zol more than me, Saifah?”
“Look at you bullying your sister….”
“I’m not,” Zon grumbled, “But I apologize for it.”
“I know you will do that.”
“How do you know?”
“Well, my boyfriend is so cute.” I reached out to rub Zon’s head affectionately. “But have you sober up already? With this hunger of yours.”
“I guess,” said Zon, hiding his face in my neck. At first I thought that there would be nothing more than a hug. Because in my head I thought that after a while when Zon was okay so that I could go and order food. But no, Zon, Ai’Zon really lives up to his name. Those little lips began to bite along the nape of my neck and earlobes, while a small hand was inserted into my shirt.
“Zon.”
“Do you know that since you began the project, you haven’t touched me?”
“…”
“You are blushing, Saifah.”
“It’s so dark in here, how would you know?”
“What is dark, the lamp is bright enough.”
“…”
“…”
“You are embarrassed because of what I said just now, right?”
“Hmmm.”
“So, do you want to do that?”
“You are drunk.”
“So what?”
“I don’t want to have sex when you’re not very conscious of it.”
“You are freaking sting Saifah … Let’s do it, I miss you bad. I want you to hug me to death anyway. You know I endured it all the time since you started that project, but now I won’t.”
“What are you doing?” I asked in a sly tone. Until Zon moved his head to look at me and he licked his lips in a sexy manner, before biting his lower lip and wiggling his eyebrows.
“I don’t want you to sleep yet,” Said the short man, pressing a kiss on my lips. The thin tongue was inserted into the cavity of my mouth before he was using both hands to support my face for a deeper kiss. I would never let this go in vain. Finally, my hand that was holding Zon was tucked into his boxer shorts. Zon’s wheezing sounded with a faint sound from his small lips, “Ah.”
“I love it when you moan like this,” I said, leaving his small lips to the tip of my chin, I moved pulling Zon’s legs that hugged my waist tighter than before. After that, I pushed Zon down on the bed
I like Zon when he most emotional.
I like the way he sends his unbearable needy gaze like this.
“This is something I also like.”
“You’re talking a lot, huh?” After that he called my name all night long. For two or three weeks I was focused on a project so I can finish and send it to the teacher, making my needs and hunger for the man in front of me flare up and never go out easily. Zon himself was no different. Our needs were fulfilled over and over again in this night.
I love Zon
I love that Zon is Zon.
I loove that he’s a person and he doesn’t have to be like anyone else
“Just you being yourself is enough, Zon. Just be you … I will love until I can’t breath.”
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